193 : subject : 16/11/2004 19:11
play soccer at sportsite go to school, go to antioch, plan to go to japan next school year for study abroad192 : look@me : 21/10/2004 21:10
up a tree again nananan AKs raise 72 call A7h on a 3suited club flop raise poker191 : subject : 15/10/2004 01:10
life is strange, but ig uess its fun190 : subject : 12/09/2004 19:09
2 soccer games for columbus state this weekend, it was fun.. we played in pennsylvania and stayed in a hotel, and food. both payed for buy the school. guys are nice and fun, i played well, and enjoyed it. i hurt my knee, i'm gonna go get it looked at tomorrow by the athletic trainer...189 : subject : 02/09/2004 14:09
yup summer soccer lazy188 : tubjects : 23/08/2004 01:08
we had to run 2 miles for soccer on thursday, I got a new personal best 12:04.. I still haven't broken 12 :( but I could do it I'm sure. Anyway... um first game for columbus state is in 9 days.. umm playin poker online for real money. dumpster divin, selling tickets, seling cars.. yeah that's it.. time to go play some poker.. imyournetfriend187 : subject : 27/07/2004 22:07
hey i'm gonna run 2nite, and stretch a lot cus yesterday we werne't allowed to stretch so now i'm super tight/soar186 : subject : 21/07/2004 23:07
i'm just me just me sitting in a tree. and that's all that you'll let me be that's all i'll ever be... practice for colmbus state.. tired.. sleeptime185 : subject : 21/07/2004 00:07
as long as i have my health, physical, and mental, then nothing else matters. I ran 2 miles 2nite, did situps and pushups, stretched, and yoga... i'm reading the theory of poker by slanksy184 : 2.5 miles 15:58 : 15/07/2004 23:07
ran 2.5 miles 15:58 doing the last lap in 1:26 2 sets of situps/pushups I know tomorrow I can drop my 2.5 mile time to 15:38 just by pushing harder.183 : addfs : 14/07/2004 00:07
our hearts aren't made of glass they're made of muscle and blood and something else and they dont so much as break as bend and tear do we have what it takes to keep it together and move on and move on182 : subject : 14/07/2004 00:07
hey.. im gonna take it all out in soccer tomorrow fuck everything181 : yeah : 13/07/2004 22:07
yeah ... coach called me, said i can play any position in defence.. other stuff... i ran 2 miles today and did lots of stretching, this is our first week of 2 practices a week, monday and wednesday, then tomorrow is antioch graduate, staci's party, which i shall arrive unfashionably late at180 : train : 12/07/2004 22:07
train.. there are 2 kinds, im gonna dothe one that has no relation to hopping, well i mean i guess their mite be hopping but no train hopping... i'm gonna train for soccer... they should spell these 2 differently, to be easily destinguistahabble179 : subject : 02/07/2004 16:07
fuck potsers...i'm a rubbaband man for life178 : sub : 29/06/2004 16:06
umm columbus state soccer ... selling cars selling tickets, cleaning my room, goin to kings island maybe, reading books, sleeping,... got a speeding ticket yesterday, it's emma's birthday this week all week177 : 12:15.30 : 17/06/2004 22:06
i ran 2 miles hard.. i got a time of 12:15.30 when i say 2 miles it's a half truth, i ran around the track 8 times, but it's like 44 meters short of 2 miles or something, so you had like 9 seconds or something... i dont know exactly.. but anyway, i realized why i like running so much.. because it makes me proud,.... that i'm doing something right176 : so come on : 17/06/2004 16:06
they only want you when you're 17, when you're 21 you're no fun175 : subject : 17/06/2004 16:06
i am suposed to study abroad for a year in japan next year, but i just realized, i'd rather study abroad in another country, so i can learn a 4th language, damnit.. i wonder if i still can, if it's not too late174 : yay for summer : 10/06/2004 22:06
hiiiiiii ummm i ran i did situps and pushups i played at antrim today is first day of an amazing summer173 : verdel : 09/06/2004 23:06
verdel is a cool cat172 : hi : 07/06/2004 21:06
i think the reason i like running, and staying healthy, and growing as a person, is because the most important person in your life,.. is yourself.. i know it sounds selfish to say it, but it's true.. you are the only person you can ever completely understand, you can ever completely trust, and it's the only person that you will definately be with, for the rest of your life.. everything in life is temporary, except for the fact that you will have yourself always... You owe it to yourself to become a good person, to be intersting, to be fun, and to be healthy... I feel good when I run cus I know it's time I'm taking out of my life, for me, and Just me, not for anyone else, but for me... time that I have to be honest with myself,and to be in a real world... When I am runninng there is no never-ending war, there is no alchoholism, rape, murder, sexism, homophobia, predjudis... there is no final exam tomorrow, there is no need to conform, there is no style, no fashion, no advertisement, no corporate america.. when I run, it's just me, alone with my thoughts, my life, my honesty, myself ... thanks for reading this, call me anytime.. 614.266.4863171 : subject : 03/06/2004 21:06
running is fun i'm gonna do stairs everyday this week run the bleachers of the stadium that is .. this is the last week of class, then next week is finals week170 : oh yeah : 01/06/2004 21:06
a fun weekend with jim and chenoa involving the liberation of bicycles, food, and movies :) punk rock soccer and hangin out and fun :) good good weekend :) time for more school, then good weekend, then finals, then a great summer169 : 2 miles in 12:10 : 26/05/2004 20:05
we had to run for columbus state today We had to run 2 miles in under 13 minutes. Of the people that were there, 3 people made it, I got second place with a time of 12:10. I don't ever want to get 2nd place again. I will run every nite from now on at least 2 miles. I will time it168 : 5:52.09 : 25/05/2004 21:05
i ran 2 miles, one timed, the time was 5:52.09167 : floor : 25/05/2004 21:05
the floor of my room is the most honest place that i know of... it is when i confront myself, reality, my life, and take myself seriously, i do my pushups and situps. i stretch, meditate, do yoga... it's when i decide everyday that i am not gonna let work, school, governement, the corporate america, the media or the police get me down, let them make me another fat lazy amerikkkan.. it's when i am real and honest and humble.. sometimes i dont do well sometimes i am louzy, but i am there on the floor trying. trying my hardest, to stay honest with myself, and not forget about the things that matter to me.. not let it just be in the back of my head that i am discontent with my physical fitness. it's when i am honest with myself and do what i know i should do.. it's when i follow my heart instead of the TV.. it's when i am 100% perfect in my own imperfection and accepting it I love the floor of my room, it's the most honest place that i konw of166 : subject : 25/05/2004 17:05
im gonna run 2nite for sure165 : subject : 24/05/2004 15:05
i will run and do situps and pushups today and 2morrow164 : tickets tickets : 23/05/2004 13:05
cops pulled me over yesterday for going to fast, i had no registration, no insurance no drivers lisence and it was 4 AM.. I got away with a warning.. phew... i dont know how much more i can get away with this..but good things are a foot, i can feel it163 : subject : 21/05/2004 07:05
good things are afoot162 : life : 19/05/2004 14:05
its weird how life is. life is weird your life can be changed forever in an instant161 : subject : 18/05/2004 22:05
i dont think there is anything i like better then night time thunderstorms160 : high : 18/05/2004 21:05
the feeling and pride and exuberence and hapiness and self fulfilment and honesty i experience from running is like nothing else can give me all alone out there doing good for myself and my body and i'm the only one that matters at that point... i'm taking myself, my life, and my health seriously, as if my LIFE depnded on it, cus it does... i'm tired of being lazy, and fat, and tired, and unfit, and can't run... run, run run... it's fulfiling i just ran in a thunderstorm, and i feel better then i have in months159 : ran : 16/05/2004 23:05
just went on a jog in UA, they closed the track that i run on, i guess i was running to late and they didnt like it, and there was a cop there, that said good morning 2 me, then i ran around the hwole school, and he saw me at another intersection and stared at me, then i went around a different block, and on that block was a cop car stopped with 2 cops out of the car in the middle of the road at midnite.. it was weird i ran 2 miles pretty hard i should up it to 3 miles really soon158 : running : 16/05/2004 23:05
i run cus it's something that i can do for me157 : time : 16/05/2004 22:05
its weird how we lie to ourselves we even lie to ourselves about lying to ourselves, that is we pretend that we aren't lying to ourselves, and we are so good at it, that we actualy believe it's true, we believe we are not lying to ourselves, we believe that we dont mind working 10 hour days, or being out of shape, or being dependant on drugs, or losing our mental capacities. being lazy, watching tv, not being active, wasting money, wasting time, wasting our life away we lie to ourselves so much that we don't even realize that we are doing these things. i do it to, i do it fuck. time to change156 : subject : 14/05/2004 21:05
2morrow is osu soccer tournament 7 on 7 we are gonna win it155 : yay for patricko : 12/05/2004 22:05
i have had 4 and a half liters of water today i have been eating breakfast everyday and running and doin situps and pushups everyday154 : soccer : 11/05/2004 17:05
we live by the beep, click, blinking light, ring tone, flash, change of light, green to red, beep beep, click click, tick tock...153 : i'm gonna do stuff : 11/05/2004 15:05
i'm gonna lose weight and get fit152 : yyeah : 11/05/2004 15:05
i'm not eating out at restaurautns anymore i'm cooking more food at home i'm working more cleaning more getting straight a's in Philosophy 101151 : subject : 10/05/2004 23:05
i went on a bike ride yesterday i played soccer and worked tomorrow i have a midterm150 : subject : 09/05/2004 21:05
dude tomorrow is ognna be a good day i can feel it :) .. tomorrow = do nutrition homework, study for nutrition midterm play soccer, meet with advisor about fin aid run 2m miles149 : dude : 06/05/2004 22:05
i went to osu to play soccer for 3 hours and did 2 sets of situps and pushups 2 exhaustion148 : soccer running : 05/05/2004 20:05
yesterday i played at a 7 at antrim, and ran 2 miles at the track at UAHS ..... today i played at columbus state at a 9... it was 3 hours long practice, they're pretty hard.. oh yeah yesterday i did situps and pushups, and the day before that, and today 3 sets of each, to exhaustion...also, i went to study abroad at osu, i think i'll go to japan in fall 2005.. also i think that i will play for columbus state in fall 2004, and i think i will go to med school in fall 2007 i think maybe 2006 if i can pull it off... :) i'm gonna be a doctor :)147 : pushup epiphanies : 29/04/2004 19:04
in doing pushups today i realized something146 : my yeah, my box my stuff i have to take this fuckin stuff i have to take it yyeeah : 29/04/2004 19:04
hmm well good things are coming soon or maybe their already in the process 614.266.4863145 : dumpster diving, or lack thereof : 29/04/2004 02:04
i dumpster dive. I mainly just go for food. mainly organic and/or vegan food. I feed my family and myself with this food. ack i can't do this now sorry brett i can't feel it anymore, i'll do it later damn, i really better do it ok i will do it later, i will i will144 : weird : 28/04/2004 19:04
here are some of the things people searched to find my blog143 : good things : 28/04/2004 16:04
Somehow I can tell. something, or things, that are good, are soon to occur. I can feel it coming. soon somehting good will happen. I don't know what. I have no idea. But I can definately feel it, and it iwll definately happen. Maybe it will just be a 100 small good things or maybe just 1 big good thing. but somethin is gonna happen my phone number is 614.266.4863 my AIM is VeganMaverick my email is veganmaverick@hotmail.com you can chose whichver you want. I am very sick, but I will be better soon.142 : something good is gonna happen soon : 28/04/2004 16:04
something good is gonna happen soon I can feel it here it comes keep pushin141 : good things are afoot : 27/04/2004 16:04
good things are afoot. I can feel it.140 : i can feel it : 26/04/2004 21:04
tomorrow is gonna be a good day i can feel it139 : TWW Today's Word's Of' Wisdom' : 26/04/2004 19:04
today's words of wisdom138 : pacho desu : 26/04/2004 18:04
I am Patrick Leo Costello, I am a 21 year old college student, I am insecure, undecided about life, and I'm doin' the best that I possibly can.137 : verdel : 26/04/2004 18:04
All week people lookforward to friday, and all weekend people dread monday. Life shouldn't be like that, life should be everyday, just have fun with everyday, enjoy every day, who cares what day it is, or what's coming, or what has been, what has happened, just enjoy today, enjoy now, enjoy what you have, cus the only time you can ever enjoy is NOW, so you might as well enjoy it. fuck fridays being fun, fuck mondays sucking, fuck having fun on the weekends, fuck work weeks fuck 5 day work weeks, fuck 2 day weekends everyday is a weekend, everyday is saturday everyday is sunday, have fun always! learn always, rest whenever you want, go out whenever you want, do whatever you want whenever you want wherever you want however you want for as long as you want! this is life! we only get a small time to live this life, so fuck Mondays!136 : motorohio : 26/04/2004 16:04
i got my interneational driver's lisence today, it lasts 1 year from june 9th. I mite get a scooter or motorcycle in japan. I had a philosophy midterm today. It didn't go so well. But I'm gonna get All A's this term. I'm playin soccer tonight at 6 at OSU.135 : life : 25/04/2004 19:04
life is what you make of it if your life sucks, and you sit around watch tv, and complain about how life sucks, then your life is gonna suck if you hvae fun, and do things you enjoy, and try to seek out fun, people you enjoy, places and things you enjoy, then you will have fun. You can do whatever you want with your time on earth. You can learn if you want, and grow, or you can not grow, you can be lazy, and scared. it's only up to you i'ts up to you Life is what you make of it it's up to you134 : motorcycle ohio : 25/04/2004 15:04
i spent the weekend at antioch. I saw gradutation. I freeboxed some stuff. I also went to learn how to ride a motorcycle in Xenia, and I passed the exam at the end, so I now have a motorcycle lisence. umm yeah 2nite is punk rock soccer133 : 133 : 23/04/2004 16:04
do you ever feel insecure? do you ever feel like you have no real friends? just random thoughts on an un-related note, we had GBLT discussion in athletic class today. it was strange there were a lot of openminded people and a lot of, i dunno, oldschool people it was allright though oh well132 : vegan dumpster pizza : 22/04/2004 23:04
i love making vegan dumpster pizza. i like cooking i like eating food i cooked i should clean up more i'm tired time for bed131 : repost july 5 2003 : 22/04/2004 18:04
i posted this while i was in japan, i thought i'd re-post it cus i jsut read it, and i think it's amazing. I respect the person who wrote it a lot. post a comment and tell me what u think 0 : subjecttes : Jul 5 Sat 08:07 i leave seika university in 11 days.. damn.. soccer is fun, i played today, i love soccer... Why do we pretend like we don't see the real world? or do most people not see the real world??? so here is life.. you go to elementray school, then middle shcool, then high school, I guess then you go to college,.. you abuse alchohol, study but don't learn, and distract yourself from life... after college you get your full time job.. AKA shigotto... you can spend 8 hours a day answering phone calls about the nutrition contents of a mcdonalds hamburger, you can work construction building freeways, you can be a policeman and put people in jail for trying help others, you can be an executive for a big company, and spend your life promoting a product no one needs,... .. my choice of favorite job is a marketing director or whatever. an advetiser... they say a good commercial is one that "makes the customer dissatisfied with his current situtation"... or something like that.... so after my 8 hour day of working for someone else, i'm gonna come home to my wife, and eat the dinner she made for me, and then i shall drink a few beers while I watch tv until it's time for me to go to bed... i will do that for as many years as i can, and after i can't work at my full time job anymore, i will deem myself old, and worthless, and I will slowly wither away, until i hate life so much, that i die... man fuck that... I am gonna be a pro soccer player, a free doctor, not numb myself with drugs, fuck marriage, fuck finite love, fuck the nine to five... fuck covering your eyes, .. i don't wanna give 8 hours of my day everyweekday, to pepsi, or Bic, or Walmart or Cingular or nike, .. i wanna spend my time having fun, i wanna do what i wanna do, i wanna learn, and make friends, and experience life...I don't wanna work for the conveinence store for 7 dollars an hour, I don't wanna work for NationWide Insurance for 40 dollars an hour, ... I'm going to be a professional soccer player, I'm going to be a free doctor, I'm going to visit every country on this planet, I'm going to learn dozens of languages, so I can communicate with my people, with my brothers and sisters...I'm going to help wherever I can, I'm going to end suffering wherever possible, I'm going to learn as much as possible, I will learn from everyone,... I don't want a girlfriend, I don't want a wife, I don't want friends I don't want best friends, I don't want drinking buddies I don't want teammates, I don't want labels. I want to have fun with people, to be intimate with people, to love people and for them to love me. I want to hang out with whoever whenever wherever,.. I want to do whatever whenever I want to do anything, anywhere... I have no answers about life, I have no clue about life, I only know that I will strive to do what I want to do, and strive to do the right thing...aproximately every 4 seconds, someone on earth will die because they don't have food... damn.. Why don't we try to help them??? Why?? Why do we waste money on things we don't need, instead of helping our brothers and sisters... Damn, I am not perfect, I do it too.. maybe we should all stop wasting money on things we don't need, and instead help save lives?? oh well.. fuck it, it's not like anyone cares anyway, because soon after i finish writing this I will buy a new soccer ball instead of saving hundereds of lives, and soon after you read this, you will buy a new pair of shoes instead of saving hundereds of lives,.. it's ok, I love you anyway, and I hope you love me too130 : wakarahenn : 22/04/2004 18:04
i wanna spend this summer cheaply. I am thinking either my oroginal plans in japan, or actualy, go to easte africa, ethiopia, eritrea, egypt, sudan, kenya djibouti, all or some or one of those countries, my other idea is hitchhike europe. If I go to Japan, I will spend a few weeks hitchihking around and about 2 months in kyoto. What should i do? see the thing is that japan will be expensive, a thousand for the ticket, 1500 for an apratment for 3 months, then train money, and bike money and gas money and food money, i'd probably spend about 5 thousand over 3 months,. damn129 : blog comments : 22/04/2004 17:04
will you guys do me a favor? please comment on my blog thanks128 : summer plans : 22/04/2004 16:04
i played soccer today for the first time in a while cus i've been sick. I don't know where i'm goin or what i'm doi this summer. I want to go to japan but it's mad expensive, and i've been there twice. I might go to east africa, or hitchhike in europe.127 : state of mind : 20/04/2004 19:04
it all depends on what you decide. your state of mind. If you are sad, you can have all your friends in the world around you, all the vegan peanutbutter chocolate chip cookies you want, and you'll still be sad. If you are happy, and content, you can be alone waiting for hours for something, but still you are content in your mind. So you deicde to be happy or you decide to be sad, you live withini your mind, and it's all up to you. so just decide to be content, and decide to grow decide to be a better person, decide to try harder, decide not to be afraid, decide not to be lazy, then, the rest will come easy. your dezires will be realized through your state of mind126 : sick sucs : 19/04/2004 16:04
i haven't been goign to class much lately and i need to study kanji more i haven't run in a while cus i've been sick ack I will be better in 2 days125 : hitchhiking : 17/04/2004 16:04
i went hitchhiking in japan last summer here are pics pbase.com/leol5124 : its 5 am : 17/04/2004 04:04
its 5 am i want to sleep i am mourning the soul of a lost friend ack :( i don't know what to do123 : skippingrocks : 16/04/2004 22:04
one day when i was in japan, i went to kamogawa river, and i was bein all pensive as the sunset, and i went to skip some rocks and a group of about six, 12 year old girls joined, me, and we had fun. and then they said bye and i said bye, and we both went on with our lives, with our futures being forever, completely changed.122 : dumpster diving : 16/04/2004 22:04
I dumpsterdive with all the energy that I hate working. Because for every meal of food i dumpster dive, that's 5 or 6 or 7 dollars that doesn't have to be spent on food, and that's one hour of my life, that I get for myself, instead of having to work for someone else. I dumpster dive with the pasion of a man, who's time in his life, depends on it, because it does.121 : pacho : 16/04/2004 21:04
i worked today it was tiring but i made money i also watched soccer i am really sick120 : soy cheeze! : 14/04/2004 22:04
i knew i was forgetting something,.. there is also dumpstered soy-cheese on my vegan-chicken-sandwhich thingy119 : still no1 has tried it : 14/04/2004 22:04
i haven't eaten in a long time, a few days do you have any idea, how good, and fulfilling, dumpstered, organic, nutritious, cooked-by-your-mom vegetables are? They make mcdonalds seem like it should live in a different galaxy. i'm just eating boiled karrots, and cauliflower, and it is one of the best meals i've ever had oh yeah, i also made a dumpstered vegan-chicken-burger, with dumpstered vegenaise, dumpstered lettuc and tomato, dumpstered bread, and uh, water in a cup that i got out of a trash can hehe, (by coincidence) i am eating a banana too though, which my mom bought =\ we have grapes in the fridge, i'll eat those 2morrow i played soccer at antirm, my bslef though, cus no one wanted to play, i just juggled, and did moves for an hour and a half. then i went to columbus state soccer, which is "fitness" we just run, and do a lot of fitness drills, then i took some dumpsterd food to brett, that we got together, and also umm.. i'm dead tired, then i hugged my mom, then i ran a mile in which, anyone could walk it faster, i haven't eaten in days.. and uh, im eating now and it's great, and uh, um, uh... yeah, i hope i have energy tomorrow for my philosophy quiz at 930 am, and also um, that 1 more thing.. i have only slept 10 hours out of the past 72. *shrug* i'm still not sleepy either this is the longest blog entry, well my veggies are getting cold, i'm gonna go eat them you are my friend, call me 614 2664863118 : i just took a shower : 14/04/2004 11:04
yeah i dunno i'm gonna try to be more honest with myself, my friends and my emotions. defiance ohio was a great show last night, in ann arbor, they played with one reason i'm also gonna go see defiance ohio in toledo ohio on sunday and then against me! is on monday i'll see how that is =\ i want to have fun, i hate school class and homework ack i dunno here are some pics of me in japan pbase.com/leol5117 : last night : 13/04/2004 13:04
last night was amazing it lifted my spirits and we're doin it again 2nite we're driving to ann arbor to see defiance ohio here we go i have to run today, and juggle, i will find a place/time maybe if we get there early, or before we leave, but it's raining.. i dont awnna sit in a car wet for hours :( i dunno, good luck patricko run do situps and stuff hey, you are my friend if you are reading this. whoever you are you can clal me anytime 614 266 4863 day or night116 : not just any band : 13/04/2004 01:04
i saw defiance ohio today and they were amazing maybe things will be all right. no. things WILL be all rite. thins are allrite starting now Thank you defiance ohio115 : aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh : 12/04/2004 18:04
there is a show 2nite definace ohio but i will run every day that i should from now until june first i will do pushups and situps everyday that i should from now until june first No less then 2 mile run everytime. I will never not be there for a friend. In other words I will always be there for my friends Call me anytime day or night 614 266 4863 It's my cell phone.114 : subject : 12/04/2004 11:04
i discovered the key to hapiness it's doing the things you enjoy and physical activity and it's important to be outdoors a significant amount it's all the answer, do it for a week and you will realize i'm right you should do it patrick ok i will startin today :)113 : man : 12/04/2004 08:04
well i hate ohio state university i am miserable there i juggled soccer ball yesterday and talked to abuto king www.abutoking.com hmm time for class112 : Alchohol (beer) : 11/04/2004 18:04
I think the main reason that young people drink alchohol is to socialize. It gives a venue, somethign to do, and lets you be able to talk. It is a false release from the pressures of the world. man so what the fuck idont even know what im saying111 : abuto king : 11/04/2004 18:04
i want something more, more then a 7 year old car, more then a a house a computer television, fast food, clean clothing, commercials, polution, fake politeness, small talk, beer, anti-depressents, fake friends, embaressment, shame, materialism, nike t-shirts, north face jackets. a fake education at a fake school, facism, president bush, corporate america, lies, corporate media, corporate patrick, i want something more then sedated patrick, i want real patrick, i want real life i want real fun, i want to go hungy a day, i want to get lost in korea, i want to learn all the languages of the world, i want to meet people who have less then me, but have so much more then me. The more I have, the less happy I am. The happiest I've ever been in my life, all I had was backpack filled with the bare necesities. it's not like this makes a difference or anyone reads this anyway why am i homophobic? do i care that i'm homophobic? why do i eat when i'm not houngry why do i look for hapinness somewhere where it isn't is anyone really happy? why are humans lazy scared and crave love? can it really be overcome?110 : diaru : 11/04/2004 11:04
Let's start a revolution. We will all be honest, and be ourselves, live life and be happy. Fuck companies fuck the government fuck full time jobs fuck the police fuck authority fuck society let's just have fun and be ourselves let's do what we want, and never give in maybe this life will be harder, poorer, dirtier, but it's real, and it's the only real life. If you go the other way, you are dead already, so I'd rather live real life at least a little while i can, then die now, and sell my soul to the state. patricks feelings109 : fuck the pharmacutical industry : 10/04/2004 18:04
the future is here. Are you sick? are you sad? are you too happy? are you loud? are you quiet? are you fat are you skinny? do you have acne? do you have high blood pressure, soralisis, oily scalp, can't hold an erection, do you have mood swings, do you have trouble sleeping, do you sleep too much does your back hurt, are you going bald? do you get headaches, do your joints hurt? are you forgetful, are you overactive? are you underactive, inactive? do you have alergies? do you have a cold? do you have the flu? do you want to avoid getting pregnant, are you pregnant? do you want more muscle? do you want a bigger penis? DO YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY? The future is now, the answere is here. Just visit your physician, and he will prescribe you the coresponding pill to make you happy and give you everything you ever wanted. The future is now. The answer is in this tiny pill. You will be happy. Just give up money, and your true emotions, your feelings, your thoughts, your soul. And in exchange, you will be sedated.108 : hapiness : 10/04/2004 11:04
happiness don't come from without it comes from within107 : hapiness : 10/04/2004 11:04
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105 : subject : 08/04/2004 22:04
do we just hide from how insecure we really are? do we realize we are this insecure? or is it just me... i think humans are insecure we don't know what's gonna happen in the future we hate change we are lazy we are afraid man if we could conquer fear and laziness we would be set or is it just me? if i could congquer fear and laziness i would be set come on come on come on ack come on come on u can do it man why am i unfit? why do i hate osu? why do i hate class why do i hate people why do i hate americans why do i hate mcdonalds i'm dumb you're dumb you know what son? i'm gonna go run104 : fucktv : 07/04/2004 22:04
I want my behaviour to be dictated by my morals, my ethics, and my heart, not by television, not by a big company, not by a CEO. TV I don't watch it, I don't like it. You learn that you smell bad so you must by deoderant, you learn that girls won't like you if you don't wear cologne, you learn that if you are a girl, you will be pretty if you shave your legs, and wear sandals, and wear lipstick and buy miniskirts and ack. The important things in life, are not found in a television, or in a package, or in a store, or in a supermarket or in a commercial.103 : the main reason i avoid television : 07/04/2004 22:04
I want my behaviour to be dictated by my morals, my ethics, and my heart, not by television, not by a big company, not by a CEO.102 : write : 07/04/2004 21:04
i trained with columbus state community college today. outdoors i have a test in philosophy tomorrow i saw daniel dordick today i'm tired otday i can't even spell today101 : newrun : 06/04/2004 19:04
i'm gonna go run 2 miles 2nite and do situps and pushups i wanna play for columbus state community college tomorrow pickup is at antrim for the first time this year100 : tebjucts : 01/04/2004 12:04
man stuff sucks i dont think ne1 reads this anyway why does it matter anyway i got cut from the OSU soccer team Looks like it's columbus state for me. Either Columbus State, or otterbein I guess. Fuck both Fuck all 399 : tebjucts : 01/04/2004 12:04
man stuff sucks i dont think ne1 reads this anyway why does it matter anyway i got cut from the OSU soccer team Looks like it's columbus state for me. Either Columbus State, or otterbein I guess. Fuck both Fuck all 398 : bad string of luck : 11/03/2004 08:03
bad string of luck lost a best friend injured myself playing soccer. my car caught on fire on the freeway on the way home police were annoying askin me all kidnsa questions firefighters come and give me a lecture... get 4 hours of sleep before my japanese test and psychology final exam.. go to take my other car to school, and it wont start i guess the batteries dead i go to japan in 25 hours... the car is "chargin" rite now, off another car, i don't have the keys 2 it .. i hope it'll work... if not.. i dunno, i'll have to hurry the fuck to class somehow its 940 now the test is at 1030.............. oh well i waiosjdflkajslkdfjl try to live life without regrets u know?97 : subject : 10/03/2004 16:03
i'm goign to japan on fridy i play soccer everyday in america i will run and juggle on my own in japan and probably do cones on my own i guess after i get back to america, i have tryouts for OSU I don't wanna ever work a desk job from 9-5 with a boss who tells me what to do.. fuck that james geigle promised he'd shoot me dead before that ever happens... good thing i have good friends96 : subject : 08/03/2004 08:03
so um, it's monday morning,.. all in time i guess.. it's only 947.. and 10 feels so far away...95 : life : 07/03/2004 21:03
im just the same as every1 else i'm not special i try to do the right thing always, i end up instead doing the wrong thing often.. i think i'm a good person, im vegan i dont do drugs, i try to be honest with people... im no better then the next person... i'm human, human is be lie be lazy be scared im human doshyoka? i ran just over a mile and played at sportsite soccer tryouts are march 30 at osu94 : tcebjus : 07/03/2004 13:03
i ran 1 mile, cusi had a cramp in my stomach um yeah..... i have a lot of homework to do this is the last week of winter quarter at OSU93 : amerika : 06/03/2004 18:03
So it's 740 pm on saturday night i lost the japanese speech contest today, i also ran 2 miles last nite.. prety hard...and i miss atsuyo.. tonight im gonna run 2 miles again.. everyday... and situps and pushups.. whichi also did yesterday.. OSU tryouts are in april92 : stuff : Sep 28 Sun 00:09
a few things i realized i need to... run more read more work more play soccer more drink more eat more healthy use the internet less watch less movies ride my bike more drive less do what I<~~ want to do more.. i ran 1 mile 2nite... it wasn't that bad91 : subject : Sep 24 Wed 00:09
i ran today for the first time in a long time, 1 mile, pretty fast.. i haven't written on here in a while cus i have bene ashamed to becasue i haven't been running/stayin fit.. i've been playing soccer for the most part.. but not running, but from 2nite on.. i am.. everyday.. i remember i used to run in the snow.. i used to run at 3 am in japan, i used to run when i didn't think i'd ever get out there, but i did, and i made it.. i haven't lately, and i am giong to from now on.. after/during running i am a different person,... it is a totally different world.. life is coquierable .. it is possible, atainalble.. the fact that a girl dumped you once.. doesn't seem so bad.. the fact that you aren't in college doesn't seem so bad, the fact that you are 20 and are dreading living in a world run by bush's... it seems changeable.. anything can happen... as long as you conquer the 2 most basic human emotions, laziness, and fear90 : run! : Sep 5 Fri 23:09
i ran... for the first time in maybe a month.. maybe a little longer.. i sucked at it and had that tired feeling in my chest afterwards, like the very first day i ran back in february, i went to watch osu's team play... ugh.. that's a different story.. so i'm gonna try to start training with magic again... startin gmonday89 : hospital : Aug 29 Fri 00:08
they gave me this one test today, that they gave me injections of adreneliene, in 3 minute increments, to see how long it takes me to pass out that one was SOOOOO WEIRD cus its like you wanna beet someone up you know? flight or fight but you are strapped into a chair so u cant do anything and it took 20 minuts, and then they stopped cus they couldnt get me 2 pass out i was like, shaking and twitching and wanting to punch through a wall88 : subject : Aug 18 Mon 13:08
i hitchihked all across japan, i went to korea, and now im back in usa... i played anarchist soccer yesterday, it was fun, i stubbed my toe, i hope it's not broken, but it hurts a lot...87 : amerika : Aug 6 Wed 22:08
im going back to amerika tomorrow, damn, japan was fun.......86 : hitchhike to korea : Aug 2 Sat 04:08
i just got back from hitchhiking to nagasaki, and hiroshima, and korea, im really tired, and i have a NEW cold, so i'm gonna rest... it was so much fun though, maybe the most fun of my life... damn, im tired, time to sleep, b ye bye85 : subject : Jul 27 Sun 08:07
I got back from hitchihiking, and I'm going out again tomorrow morning. I put up pictures from my first trip. Can you tell what I'm holding in the first picture at pbase.com/leol5 well thanks for reading this.. i'll beback later, im about to go run 2 miles now, i have been sick for the past 5 days and i havn't run, but i've been doing situps83 : subject : Jul 19 Sat 14:07
so im going hitchhiiking across japan tomorrow, im very nerovous, i just ran 2 miles slowly cus i have a stomach ache... while im hitchihiking u can email me at my cell fone at pacho@ezweb.ne.jp if you have anything you wanna say 2 me :) c ya.. i love you for reading this..81 : subject : Jul 17 Thu 13:07
i've been working hard for a while79 : subjecttt : Jul 17 Thu 06:07
i want it to be a better world i hate the nine to five i want to help others i wanna be a free doctor but sometimes i mess up... i hate messing up.. sometimes i just don't know what to do..78 : subject : Jul 17 Thu 06:07
do you ever just wanna give up sometimes77 : subject : Jul 17 Thu 01:07
do you ever feel like you can:t do anything right? like you messed up and the more you try to fix it the worse you seem to make it... #sigh#..75 : subjecttt : Jul 14 Mon 23:07
I ran 2 miles, I didnt run 1 day, Cus I was at my friendships family, and it was muri. Soccer club ended at seika university, so I don't have a soccer ball, so I don't know what I am going to do... I like running, it gives me all kinds of thoughts, and it's just a different world. I saw bowling for columbine yesterday, it's a good movie, I would recomend it.74 : subject : Jul 9 Wed 13:07
ran um 3 miles.... did situps.. soccer 2morrow, bed now.. love ya72 : subject : Jul 5 Sat 13:07
so im writing... my name is patrick. my screen name is Leol5... im in japan, in kyoto, and i like soccer... i also like music, and i also am a member of the movement for compasionate living, and so are you :) hehehe... welll.. i did situps today.. i need to find a jump rope... I am trying to decide when to come back to america, august 7th? sep 20th, or november 7th... ??? the main question is whether I take a term off from ohio state or not... ?71 : subject : Jul 5 Sat 10:07
i decided the reason some people are depressed is because sometimse they see the world for what it really is.. how far we have strayed from hapiness, love, comunity.. it is looking more and more hopeless, as the depressed person looks around at society, all the drones, all the atomotons... all the people who stopped thinking and started watching tv and working for the man...70 : subjecttes : Jul 5 Sat 08:07
i leave seika university in 11 days.. damn.. soccer is fun, i played today, i love soccer... Why do we pretend like we don't see the real world? or do most people not see the real world??? so here is life.. you go to elementray school, then middle shcool, then high school, I guess then you go to college,.. you abuse alchohol, study but don't learn, and distract yourself from life... after college you get your full time job.. AKA shigotto... you can spend 8 hours a day answering phone calls about the nutrition contents of a mcdonalds hamburger, you can work construction building freeways, you can be a policeman and put people in jail for trying help others, you can be an executive for a big company, and spend your life promoting a product no one needs,... .. my choice of favorite job is a marketing director or whatever. an advetiser... they say a good commercial is one that "makes the customer dissatisfied with his current situtation"... or something like that.... so after my 8 hour day of working for someone else, i'm gonna come home to my wife, and eat the dinner she made for me, and then i shall drink a few beers while I watch tv until it's time for me to go to bed... i will do that for as many years as i can, and after i can't work at my full time job anymore, i will deem myself old, and worthless, and I will slowly wither away, until i hate life so much, that i die... man fuck that... I am gonna be a pro soccer player, a free doctor, not numb myself with drugs, fuck marriage, fuck finite love, fuck the nine to five... fuck covering your eyes, .. i don't wanna give 8 hours of my day everyweekday, to pepsi, or Bic, or Walmart or Cingular or nike, .. i wanna spend my time having fun, i wanna do what i wanna do, i wanna learn, and make friends, and experience life...I don't wanna work for the conveinence store for 7 dollars an hour, I don't wanna work for NationWide Insurance for 40 dollars an hour, ... I'm going to be a professional soccer player, I'm going to be a free doctor, I'm going to visit every country on this planet, I'm going to learn dozens of languages, so I can communicate with my people, with my brothers and sisters...I'm going to help wherever I can, I'm going to end suffering wherever possible, I'm going to learn as much as possible, I will learn from everyone,... I don't want a girlfriend, I don't want a wife, I don't want friends I don't want best friends, I don't want drinking buddies I don't want teammates, I don't want labels. I want to have fun with people, to be intimate with people, to love people and for them to love me. I want to hang out with whoever whenever wherever,.. I want to do whatever whenever I want to do anything, anywhere... I have no answers about life, I have no clue about life, I only know that I will strive to do what I want to do, and strive to do the right thing...aproximately every 4 seconds, someone on earth will die because they don't have food... damn.. Why don't we try to help them??? Why?? Why do we waste money on things we don't need, instead of helping our brothers and sisters... Damn, I am not perfect, I do it too.. maybe we should all stop wasting money on things we don't need, and instead help save lives?? oh well.. fuck it, it's not like anyone cares anyway, because soon after i finish writing this I will buy a new soccer ball instead of saving hundereds of lives, and soon after you read this, you will buy a new pair of shoes instead of saving hundereds of lives,.. it's ok, I love you anyway, and I hope you love me too69 : subject : Jul 4 Fri 13:07
i ran 2 miles, i always run.. i did pushups... no wait i mean situps.. 2 sets... of 3 .. iwanna jump rope... im stlil in japan67 : tebjucs : Jul 2 Wed 11:07
I realized I amaze myself every night. I have only missed a handful of nights of running, in the past 6 months. If I were me, I would bet against myself everytime, on whether i'd go out running or not that nite. IT seems near impopssible that I will gather the energy/strength/will to do it, but I do, religiously... when im there, i can think clearly, and not think at the same time... I have everythought i've ever had in my head, and I am also drawing a complete blank... every muscle in my body hurts, but i feel better then i've ever felt before. I know I'll never make a good time, but my time is consistgently dropping... i never think i'll be able to run allthe way to the end of the 2 miles, but i never want to stop, and i never stop till i finish... my time has never been faster, I have never been thinner since I was 14, I have never been more fit, yet I still feel slow, fat, and as if I should be able to take minutes off my time. I still haven't played in a professional game, I haven't played in a competetive game in a long ass time maybe 2 years... I need to play soccer more, I don't play enough, I miss it, I miss my ball, damn.. i lost my soccer the ball the other day.. and i think my english is getting worse everyday, it's being replaced by japanese thanks for reading this i love you for it u know :)66 : subjecttebjuct : Jul 1 Tue 12:07
I may have once said that I go running everyday, i would like to correct this. allthough i do go running everyday, i dont run 2 miles everyday, on tuesday/thursday/saturday i have soccer practice, for almost 4 hours.. i run there... and on the off days,.. zunday monday wednesday friday... I run 2 miles on my own, although Starting tomorrow I am going to up it to 3 miles. Also, I do situps on the same days I run 2 miles, oh yeah pushups too... um... so soccer was cancleled today cus of rain, so i ran.. i did it in 1129... that pisses me off, it means that i don't run hard other days, or maybe it means that i just dont eat much other days... i dunno.. but thank you for reading this :)65 : fun : Jun 28 Sat 09:06
soccer was fun today it was raining. it rains almost everyday. I think I can run 2 miles in 12 minutes, but I won't be able to check for sure until i'm back in america and I have a track. I think I will check shortly after I return. I miss playing soccer at antirm... in soccer club at seika university, the most we play of actual soccer is a "mini game" 5 on 5, .. for two 5 minute halves, at the end of some practices, .. maybe about once a week.... we mostly just do sprinting drills.. we barely even use the soccer ball half the time.. but at least its training64 : hi : Jun 25 Wed 13:06
i ran today and did lat situps, i have soccer club tomorrow.. i dont know if im looking forward to it or not i want to learn massage and reiki i love you good nite63 : subjecttesjbucs : Jun 23 Mon 12:06
i ran 2 miles today, i exteneded my 2 miles by aproximately 60 meters.. i think it was a little short earlier... i did lateral situps until fatigue. at one point i realized about 2 years ago, that this is the happiest i've ever been in my life, and that it will be the most fun i will ever have for the rest of my life, that statement is also true for today, for my stay in japan ... i have soccer pratice 2morrow, but also a party for my school or something.. i dont know which one i'm gonna go to... but it will prolly be soccer :)62 : subject : Jun 22 Sun 13:06
i ran in 11:41.. that's 20 seconds faster then my fastest time... i gathered that to mean not that i ran a fast time today, but that the other days i wasn't trying hard... either that, or i have been eating recently, which might give energy or something.. i had soccer yesterday and today did 3 sets situps 3 sets pushpups.. thank you for reading this iu love you for it61 : subject : Jun 22 Sun 00:06
im in japan, its fun, i played soccer yesterday, it was fun. it's hot and muggy in japan, but its fun :) i got a bunch of luna bars yesterday, so that's good i will eat them and it wil l be fun :)60 : subject : Jun 19 Thu 11:06
i played soccer today better then eever before i think its cus ive been eating recently japanese language is fun :) goodnite59 : subject : 169 2003 13:06
i ran 1 mile today.. i have run ever nite for 10 nites in a row, onlyh 1 mile today cus i had soccer yesterday and 2morrow, im kinda soar :) .. damn, i'm trying to eat more.. it just makes me hungrier though .. the # at the dohokan here is 01181757079604 just in case u were wondering58 : subject : 168 2003 01:06
I'm trying to decide whether to go to ohio state university, or to stay at antioch college. It's a rough decision. I'm going to go to Mexico in december. I'm gonna fly to austin texas, buy a pickup truck, pickup my sister christina in austin, and drive to mexico city, and meet my mom there and mai tanaka... mai is going to go with me and I hope my friend lauren is gonna go to. we will have fun.. shuhei might also go.. it's gonna rock... I'm trying to save up to buy the truck... I hope I'll have enough by the end of August.57 : subject : 167 2003 13:06
i ran 2 miles, it took me 12 minutes and 2 seconds, .. 2 days ago, i did the same distance in 12:01.. damnit. .. oh well, 2morrow i have soccer club, that will be fun.. .. from 430 to 830.. that's long ass soccer club... i am going to run from kyoto to osaka soon.. i better start working upto it... i did situps, lateral situps, that's what i am concentrating on lately i guess... people are nice people are mean people are dumb people are wise japan is fun i am trying to better myself as a person.. . i mess up a lot, but i guess that is expected, but i'm doing the best i can i sleep with my soccer ball everynight on the nights i sleep without it, i feel empty... i slept without it 2 nights ago cus the soccer team had it :( we missed eachother goals... honestly smile, care about people, listen to people more.56 : subject : 166 2003 13:06
i ran 3 miles,... did situps and pushpus i have decided that the biggest problem in my life is the seperation of my family. I now live with my mom at home in columbus, my sister who also lives in columbus, about 3 miles away, rarely speaks to me, and we exchange no more then 100 words a month. i live with my mom who i love more then anything. my sister who i am close to just moved away to texas, and my dad cheated on my mom too many times, and my mom has been divorcing him for about 3 years now.. my dad also lives in columbus, about 5 miles away. I am the only person in my family, that still talks to my dad. He did many bad things, i'm not sure if i forgive him, but it would hurt me even more, to not talk to him. so forgiven or not, is undecided, but accepted, is more like it. So I am the only person in the family who talks to everyone.. my sister in columbus talks to my mom , and that's about it, my sister in texas talks to me and my mom. i want to talk to everyone, but my one sister in columbus thinks that i am just like my dad. a womanizer, a batterer, a male ass hole... a wife beater, i dont know, but she thinks im bad.. my dad drops his sorrows on me often, of how much he misses my mom, will never stop loving her, and how he misses, talking to my sisters, but at other times he mentions how all they want from him is money... my sisters also don't talk to my dad's dad, i guess they figure he's almost as bad as my dad... my dad's dad, had a heart attack 2 months ago, and my dad told me to tell my sisters " you can either call your grandfather up, or you can read about him in the papers when he dies"... i hate relaying messages. it hurts me more then anything to be the inbetween in a fucked up family, being the inbetween in the fcuked up family makes me cry sometimes, as i sit at the comp in japan, and type away my feelings.,, my parents have been divorcing for 3 fucking years,,, my dad once told me his view on it... he said "i was never the most faithful man to your mother, but i did everything else the best as i could,,,, i realy messed up one part of the marriage, and that hurt your mother exteremely, and its as if for that, she's willing to lose all logic, and soley rely on emotion, i messed up one thing horribly, and for that, now, she doesn't care if she loses the house to the lawyers, or the company to the government, .. i messed up the most important thing in our relationship, and for that, she relies soley on emotion from here out, she is willing to ruin everything we have built together, the warehouse, the house in arlington, the company, she is willing to mess all that up, to ruin it, to let the lawyers get it, because i messed up the most important thing we had" ... he then added "but i guess i understand that, ... she feels because i messed up the most important thing... all the other little things, the material things, it doesn't matter what happens to them"... so now my parents are in a long ass divorce, spending thousands of dollars, .. my mom doesn't talk to my dad, my dad is at home lonely, sad, missing the life he once had... my sister elena .. i don't know what she is, all i know is my mom tells me everyonce in a while when i try to talk to my sister "you know how she is"... my sister christina i love and im close to... she's off in texas having fun i assume. going to college, dumpster diving riding bikes and having fun... and here i am .. sitting in front of a computer at 3 am in my room in japan, unable to sleep... wondering what i'm gonna do with my life, wondering if i'll ever be as happy as i was as a child, realizing, i only get older from here... realizing i don't want to go into the rat race, i dont want to sit in a an office or a cubicle 8 hours a day, i dont want to have to get a salary, get a wife, get 2 kids, get a zip code in the suburbs, get depressed, get drunk, get addicted to the telivision, lose all love for live... i dont want any of that.. i just want a family. that loves eachother........55 : subject : 166 2003 04:06
hey... japan is fun, i run 2 miles everytnight, i'm gonna remeasure it though cus i dont know how accurate it is, i ran it in 1201 last nite... situps and pushups nightly, and um, drinking more water,... playin soccer 3 times a week, and juggling on the off days... ok :) bye bye54 : running : 162 2003 12:06
japan is fun :), i ran 2 miles yesterday ( yesterday was Tuesday ), running is kinda fun, I have soccer practice 2morrow (thursday), and I will go to it, I'm about to go run 2 miles now,... 2miles is to just past the nearest convenience store and back... I think i'm losing weight, prolly, i also went to cafe peace today, and i think i will go there more often... this girl who might be cool, named megu, said she is going vegan on thrusday, and vegetarian today :) .. yay for megu,.. we are spost to cook vegan food on friday, me megu and mai, prolly evan and shuhei also, but i dont think it will end up happening, cus I will be on a field trip probably,...i'm looking forward to soccer tomorrow, mainly cus i'm on a team again, and teams are fun... i'm gonna try hard tomorrow... hiroshi's band is really good!! i like 'em a lot, i go watch them everytime they practice which is pretty much everyotherday! ok i'm gonna go run 2 miles now53 : running : 160 2003 12:06
i ran 2.5 miles today, my legs are stlil soar from tests on saturday ... i'm going to kobe 2morrow, so i wont be able to go to practice, but i stll plan 2 run 2morrow nite, and i should also be going to the beach hopefulyh, with my friends S and H.. they are nice :) i love 'em.. kind people, but im really looking foreward to it! i hope i get 2 go... i didnt do situps or pushup[s today, i tried both, but decided it would be best to let my muscles rest/recover from the tests.. japan is a lot of fun, me and evan are trying to make a soccer video, like the nike commercials, of a lot of soccer moves, we'll see how it comes out... its hard work ... i also love z's friend hiroshi... his band is awesome, i hope i get 2 see them play 2morrow, i love their music, political hardcore with heartfelt lyrics and melodic introductions... damn Chuck *F* Norris rocks my socks. :)... i think i've lost a little weight, i'm not sure, i will try to weigh myself somehwehere soon.52 : subject : 160 2003 09:06
im in japan, im on the seika university soccer team, its pretty fun... i run 2 miles every night that we dont have practice.. also situps/pushups nightly...maybe i'll put pics up, maybe not... my legs are sore, im wondering if im gonna stay and play for seika during season... hmmm we had tests for soccer team, i placed around average in post, 'cept for situps and pushups, which i exceeded in.. i guess cus i do those... we didn't have distnace running :( which i like now for some reason, crazy how that works huh? after 4 months of running nightly, i fnialy enjoy it! well japan is fun, i'll post more late,r i love you!!!50 : japan : 153 2003 03:06
im now in japan, its a lot of fun!49 : tcejbus : 05/01/2003
practice is rough for the stars, but at least im a star :) we run 4 or 5 miles a day, on top of soccer, and pushups situps etc.48 : practice : 05/01/2003
i've been at practice lately, and tired so i haven't been postin' =\.. we started practice for the columbus stars on monday, it's a lot of runninng, and some soccer too. there are about 20 or so guys out there some of the team members are :46 : soccer : 04/27/2003
so i am pretty sure i made the columbus stars, 2morrow is the first practice.. but i think i will go to japan instead, and try to play pro soccer in japan probaly for kyoto purple sanga i did 1 mile last nite45 : subgect : 04/23/2003
i went into Milano sports and met the owner of the columbus stars, I had never met him before, but he came up to me and said "hey pat, how's your knee doin?" referring to my injury at tryouts, i told him great, and showed him the scar, .. I also gave them 200 dollars for registration/insurance, and they took my photo, and i signed a player card, and they got my size for uniform. They told me practice should start this week or next week .. whatev.. i played an 8 at antrim, and I ran my 1 mile, my leg will be healed pretty much by tomorrow, it has been bothering me a little bit but it will be better by tomorrow, i ran 1 mile average pace, maybe 6:45, and stretched a lot, im goin 2 bed i am tired44 : About : 04/22/2003
My name is Patrick Costello, I am a 3rd year Pre-med student at Antioch College, in Yellow Springs, Ohio. I am also a vegan. I am trying to make this soccer team the Columbus Shooting Stars .. they are a developmental team that sends many of its players in the the professional leagues in the united states, their home stadium is Columbus Crew Soccer Stadium, and the team's website is www.columbusstars.com . If I don't make the team, I will go to Japan as an exchange student, but I definately plan on making the team. The purpose of this blog is mainly to motivate me to try hard at soccer and get fit.42 : subject : 04/22/2003
i ran 1 mile around 630 i m guessing, just trying to get back fit kinda... practice should start this week i think, for lesh's team, the columbus stars www.columbusstars.com i played at an 8 at antrim 2day41 : stuff : 04/20/2003
I made it into the "player Pool" for the columbus stars,.. the player pool is like the last tryout, all 40 guys practice "as a team", and at the end of practice after a week or two, they decide who's gonna be on the team for real so um, practice should start sometime this week for Columbus Stars Player Pool, .. the last 40 players. from which the team of 26 will be picked.. I also go to the dentist on Monday, they're gonna put me on nitrous oxide to do th work, and im worried that might affect my play level.. i'm resting this weekend to try and get back to 100% health..40 : um subject : 04/15/2003
i read a couple of things today.. #1. weight loss/gain has only to do with, the amount of energy you intake, versus the amount of energy you expend. and #2. you will only lose weight permenantly, if you maintain the changes you make . ie: if you go on a diet, you will only be able to keep that weight off forever, if you maintain that diet forever.. ok.. i ran 1 mile today, in 7:38, my body felt bad.. a combination of reasons im not gonna go into, but i will add that i am gonna drink extra juice today, and eat a banana, and take a multi vitamine .. all this before bed.. i played a 9.5 at antrim, it was hot out today.. also. i did 3 sets of situps moderately hard.. im tired.. time for bedd..thanx for reading :)38 : 2 miles 12:41 : 14/04/2003
all humans love eachother right?37 : I realized why I run : 13/04/2003
i realized why i run.36 : my theory on running : 13/04/2003
my theory is .. that , at your current physical fitness, you have a time, (let's say 6 minutes and 18 seconds for me).. that you can do 1 mile in, durring a fatigued state of being.. that is,.. after running sprints, .. or running a mile, or after running 3 miles even (pretty much.. but not exactly).. after any of these things, your body has a limit, of how fast it can run 1mile, while being fatigued, .. so that is my 2nd mile time.. so if i run my first mile in 5:50.. or in 7 minutes.. either way,...35 : 2 miles in 12:41 : 13/04/2003
so when i got back from my jog, i thought my chimney was someone watching me run, sitting on my rooftop, i did a double take and realized it was just my chimney,,, and the fake mirages aren't just visual, they are also audiotory.. well .. i thought i heard a dog bark, but i realized it wasn't a dog barking, but now reflecting, it probably was, but either way it was scary... and i was wondering about the mind process of a jogger, running hard for 2 miles... my body wants me to stop, its tired, and wants more oxygen,.. so my body sends fatigue signals to my brain.. my brain receives the signals, and says to patrick "patrick, you are tired, stop running".. but i guess, another message, assumedly a stronger, or louder or clearer message somewhere says, that i should keep running.. this makes no sense that i actualy keep running, i have all odds against me? a pain, or fatigue, or i trip, or i run out of breath or something. i dunno, how do joggers do it? what convinces them that it's worth the pain to keep going? i think partially for me, it is just the fact that i would have to write on my blog "I didn't run 2 miles, i only managed 1 and a half, then i walked the rest" .. and i would even be ashamed to write a slow time "i did 2 miles in 16 minutes", i think thats a good part of the reason that i push myself.. and that is also the reason i have this blog, to keep myself motivated.. and i guess the rest of the reason that i push myself is that i want to be more fit, for me, and to play profesional soccer... i'm all sweaty right now... i did my first lap in 6:23, and my total was 12:41.03, i'm gonna try to make sure that my weekly time, is below the week before, , my weekly time being, the time i get on saturday, or sunday, which are my easy days for soccer, where i dont play too much, so i can make a good effort at the 2 miles.. i also today.. made sure not to eat after 9pm. cus eating within 3 hours usualy hinders me.. also, i did 3 sets of situps very hard, .. starting yesterday. I am trying to do my workouts a lot harder then usual, as i had been taking it easy since my stitches in my leg, but now that i am about 95% recovered, I am going harder... it still hurts when I bend my leg too much, and it is still very sensitive to the touch, i mean it hurts when you touch it! a lot.. damn.. so anyway.. when i do situps, i dont do a certain number, i just do it until i can't do anymore.. well i'm off, thanx for reading :)34 : professional soccer player : 12/04/2003
just so u know, i posted 3 times today...33 : 1 am : 12/04/2003
just so u know, i usualy go running between midnite, and 1 am.. before i go to bed, and when there are no cars on the road.. today i ran at about 1220 on friday night/saturday morning.. who does taht? who is crazy like that, ugh.. i saw a few highschoolers drivin .. i hate running on the weekends cus there are still people on the road that late.. well goodnite32 : ----- : 12/04/2003
30 : i will : 11/04/2003
im gonna run at least 2 miles from now on, everyday, and also at least 3 sets of situps, and i will try to add more pushups29 : last nite : 11/04/2003
last nite i ran 1.75 miles.. I ran with philip an old friend from soccer, he lives in pataskala, i stayed the nite with him and steve at steve's apartment.27 : ----- : 09/04/2003
i ran 1 mile yesterday at antnioch.. no situps no pushups jus 1 mile..and no socer, i was stuck in the education abroad office26 : ----- : 07/04/2003
i think fight club was right... i've had women in my life all my life, is another women really the answer to my problems? :) .. i think i am the answer i ran 1 mile..also yesterday i ran a mile, and didnt do situps, nor will i do situps today, my lower back hurts25 : long : 06/04/2003
while running several thoughts crossed my mind.. the first, i realized after no more then 30 steps,24 : running : 04/04/2003
i know people say runners acheive a high after 15 miles or something, but i do after 1 mile, i feel elated, ecstatic, euphoric, happy, excited, ready, alive, aware..lesh told me he would call me and tell me when practice is next week.. ok cool, i just did 1 mile 2nite i did 2 sets of situps hard, i played a 9.2 at antrim, i love soccer... i wanna play more23 : -----hi----- : 02/04/2003
i umm.. hmm.. sportsite championship c league, had 2 points, and 4 assists.. got kicked22 : -----hi----- : 02/04/2003
i umm.. hmm.. sportsite championship c league, had 2 points, and 4 assists.. got kicked21 : running : 01/04/2003
today is tuesday night, 2morrow i have championship for c league, we will win.. i ran a mile in about 6:45 im guessing... i did 2 sets of real hard situps.. that's it.. i am trying to work back in slowly.. my wound is healing up pretty well, it hurts less everyday, and i can bend my knee more and more everyday20 : meany : 01/04/2003
Anonymous[10:47 PM]: i thought u were going to go..19 : run : 01/04/2003
yesterday i ran 1 mile, and did 3 sets of situps. oh yeah and played for 15 minutes at antrim at an 818 : ----- : 31/03/2003
stupid ass stitches, im less fit...17 : anagrams : 30/03/2003
Ok I made some anagrams for my name, Patrick Leo Costello,16 : subjigate : 30/03/2003
3 sets situps 2 sets pushups, didn't do a 3rd set of pushups cus it killed my stitches for some reason?? *confused look* .. anyway..14 : Subject: : 29/03/2003
i wanna play on the pdl team13 : stuff : 28/03/2003
Lesh told me that we have practice in April for the PDL team, and that he will call me with specifics. Now what the hec is that spost to mean? :) lol.. and I got my passport today (friday). So it took 3 weeks and 4 days. Also, I got my Japan Student program acceptance letter today. and I get my stitches out on monday that stuff is good news, it means I will be healthy by Monday, and Also, I will be able to go to Japan if I want, and also I will be able to play soccer (I think) if I want12 : injury : 25/03/2003
my leg fucking kills, i am out of shape already i can feel it i did 3 sets of situps,l and i will start doing more tomorrow, and i will train by watching studying socer, indstead of playing, tomorrow i will do pushpus and situps, and try to do something aerobic .. i dont konw what though.. my jap exchange student arrived, and my cube, but not my passport, i am not gonna go to japan, i will play pdl soccer.. im off to rest, my leg heels mostly when i sleep, so i need good sleep11 : poems for gallagher and susana : 24/03/2003
In my games I did well10 : tryouts : 23/03/2003
first day of tryouts (saturday) got cleated in the shin, below the knee could see the bone got 7 stitches, it hurts so much, i'll be back in 1 week8 : subject : 19/03/2003
there are 3 sets of tryouts, and 3 cuts.. each tryout is 2 days, on the 3rd day .. (the first day of the 2nd tryout).. lesh wasn't given many guys looks, he was playin a select few, this also excluded me, and a lot of my buddies, we were all benched, the next day, it was about 25 degrees. and not that many players came out.. the first day there was like 70 guys, the second there was like 40... and i got a real good look the 2nd day (of the 2nd tryout).. like my buddies, i didnt wanna come out the 2nd day (of the 2nd tryout)i had received a bad look, and i figured they didnt want me, but i had to go anyway, to give it my aall, so i could say "well i tried my hardest" so i went out and got a niiice look... i just did a mile. 5:54.90.. i was going for 6 mnutes... i played outdoor at antrim at a 6 i did 3 sets of situps and 1 and a half of pushups, as my lower back was bothering me a little, and i dont wanna reinjure it before tryouts this weekened .. im gonna play in the PDL! at Columbus Crew stadium www.columbusstars.com7 : 2miles 12:39.04 : 18/03/2003
do u know how hard it is to get up everynite.. around midnite... and run 2miles hard? ughhh i can't believe i did it.. im dying by the time i get back.. i keep on getting new "best times"... today my first lap was 6:05 and second lap was 6:34 total 12:39.04 i also played OUTDOORS today at antrim for the first time since it was warm out, we moved pickup to antrim... the ground is horrible, and every1 sucked, since it was our first time out doors i did 3 sets of situps and pushups.. to exhaustion of course.. situps around 110 each set, and pushups around 50 each set... i can't do so many, on the days i run, cus i always do su/pu after i run... lesh's assistnat team picker saw me there and told me some stuff, he was either trying to tell me i was on the team, or that i wasn't. but his English was so poor, that I didn't really understand him. there has been some criticism as to the fact that i only write in my blog about soccer (mainly criticisims by wlilis!), and i'd like to point out that on march 15th i had an entry that didn't concern soccer at all, and also, that this blog is mainly to keep myself motivated to get fit, i want to play professional soccer, and it's rough. this helps me a lot6 : mile 6:23 : 17/03/2003
i ran a mile in 6:23 374 : Sat Mar 15 00:34:09 : 15/03/2003
ran kinda hard, did 1 mile, i want to do situps/pushups, but my body isn't ready, i will train outdoors 2morrow, if magic wont with me, then i will alone.. and i think i will work too..3 : Sat Mar 15 00:03:53 : 15/03/2003
im gonna run 2nite no pushups or situps as my bak is sore, and i dont wanna make it worse STUPID GOALY i played a 7 at sportsite this is the email i got from lesh .. i guess im not gonna go to japan this term cus im gonna play semi-pro soccer doesn't that "semi" make it sound so dumb? anyway here it is The Columbus Stars would like to extend an invitation to a final tryout to the PDL team. We like if you able to show up to Capital University for our last tryout on March 22nd and 23rd at 9:00am. This will be by invitation only. If you cannot attend please email or call us for further details. We will be making final decisions by March 31st. We appreciate your previous attendance. Thanks you, Lesh Columbus Stars he's a politician anyway i figure i hafta run 2nite, so i can make the team1 : soccer : 12/03/2003
played at a 9 at sportsite we only played for 105 minutes why!! got antioch game 2nite im gonna tear it up just u w8 &C!0 : japan soccer : 11/03/2003
i wanna train with a pro team in kyoto japanGoto the main page
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